Leah and I have always had a love/hate relationship. In the last 6 months we have really started to mend our relationship. We were able to go to Utah for my sisters wedding this past summer, just the two of us, and to be able to spend time with her, without any distractions from my other children, was really special. I really enjoyed and had fun with her for the first time in a long time.
I felt really guilty because Chase was born so close after Leah that I unintentionally pushed her away. I needed to take care of Chase and the stress of having a newborn baby was just too much to handle. Over time it just seemed that things got worse, not better.
Eventually I realized that she was the child and I was the adult and needed to act like an adult. I have really tried to be more patient with her and all she ever wanted was attention. Positive attention.
So on this milestone 5th birthday, I want her to know how special she is to me and to our family! We love you Leah!